So I feel like I've had the past 6 months to figure out where my life is headed, like this has been a crucial juncture in where I wind up.

I still have no clue.

I've always dreamed of pursuing music as a career. But it my voice good enough? I don't know. I usually doubt it. Are my songs any good? I don't know.

I love photography, but I've never taken classes. Can I pursue this as a business? How would I support myself if I did? How would I get started?

I have a lot of experience in accounting and administrative work. But I've never been happy there - do I pursue it anyways?

I still battle anxiety related to Prednisone.

And I second guess everything.

Please forgive the musings of this confused girl. There's just a restlessness in my heart. I know where I've been. I know where I am.

I have no clue where I'm going. And that's scary.

It's been a while since I've been on here. It's definitely been a crazy last month.

Camp was amazing! I loved meeting all the kids and getting to share great experiences (some serious, some hilarious) with them. I definitely missed that. I think the song went over well, too. And I came up with a title. It's not my favorite, but it is what it is: Praise Our Creator.

My dear friend from college, Kristen, lost her husband to cancer after an 18-month-long battle. My heart still breaks for her. Please pray for her as she makes decisions for the future. Praise God that Joel knew and loved Jesus Christ as His Savior.

My grandparents' health has plummeted. Please pray for soft hearts as my uncles and dad talk to them about the future. Also, please pray for their salvation. I hope to someday soon go talk to them, which will be difficult because my grandpa can't stay awake right now, and my grandma has Alzheimers.

I still have no job. My unemployment runs out in September. I trust and believe that God will continue to provide as He has thus far through my months without a job; still, it is a scary proposition. Please pray that I'll continue to trust in Him and that I'll find a job.

It's been quite a while since I've posted on here. Not much has changed, but some have.

I am still jobless. I've had a few interviews so far, but that's about it. That has given me an opportunity to pursue photography interests more. I've started a "venture," if you will (it's not a business yet), called 19/19 Photography. The name comes from Psalm (the 19th book of the Bible) 19, which is about the earth displaying God's glory. I've always loved that Psalm, and since all my shoots thus far have been outdoors, I felt it appropriate. So if you're in the area and ever have any photography needs, let me know!

I have struggled with some side effects of coming off of Prednisone, which I didn't anticipate in the slightest. I've found out a lot of people have this issue, but I have battled anxiety and panic issues. I've been a bit hesitant to talk about it, because I know some Christians don't think believers should have any issues when it comes to mental health. However, I know this is medication-related (man, isn't that just the story of my life?). It's been rough to deal with. I missed being in/at my best friend's wedding, which was horrible. (She was a beautiful bride, btw) I still struggle with it, but I've been put on some medication (ha, I know) that has helped.

No, I'm not engaged yet....

Life has felt like it's been on pause of late; every day feels the same. I go to bed at late hours, sleep about 8 hrs, get up and search the same job sites in the same order, apply as appropriate, and then fill my day with chores and things on the computer, with the occasional photo shoot scattered in there. I must say, though, God has been faithful when it comes to my finances. I haven't missed a bill yet (including house payments). It's a little tight right now, but my parents have been extremely helpful. This should be the first month I'll have to ask for their help with bills, which I am extremely grateful to them and to God, as I've been without employment since March.

Camp is coming up. I'm excited about the opportunity to be a counselor again - I haven't been able to do it for years, what with youth missions trip and conference. Since I am doing neither this year, I will be back at camp - I truly did miss doing it. This year will be a first, though, as I'll be a counselor at senior camp. Should be fun, and a nice break from the norm.

Looking forward to another such break with prep for the summer of service for RIOT on Monday. Don't forget - come to Basore anytime from 9 am - 4 pm this coming Monday to help!

Also, Abby Bailey and I hope to do some photo shooting soon to sell some pictures to stock photography websites. I've never done that before, but I'm excited about the opportunity.

Finally, I plan on launching an Etsy site. For those not familiar with Etsy, it's a website where people sell homemade or vintage items. I plan on making some purses, and possibly doing some things with mosaics (i.e., taking plates and smashing them, using the fragments to create a mosaic on a mirror frame). I'm excited to see where that goes... and learn how to do it, lol. Still, it will be great to use my right brain so much - definitely my niche!

It's been a long (almost) 4 months, but God has been faithful, and I know He will continue to be so, even if His plans are different than mine. Please keep me in your prayers - I would greatly appreciate that. And if you know of any job leads in writing/marketing/photography, please pass them my way!

I'm out!

~Laura

I lost my job on Monday.

I've still been sick all week.

This morning, my uncle Don was given 2 days to live.

Please pray.